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[Lassi]

We are visiting my SO's people in Australia soon and just got an email from his brother asking for us to please bring two cartons of cigarettes, since they are so much cheaper here in the US. I don't smoke. The SO doesn't smoke, though he is a former smoker and is not please with revisiting the old addiction in buying cigarettes, carrying them around, handling them, etc. I'm also not pleased about having to have them in my suitcase and carry them around for a week or two before we see the brother. Oh well though. It's family!

[Barbeegrrll]

My youngest daughter has to move out of her apartment on the 15th of next month. She does not know where she's going to live. She has known for a year that she would have to move. She tried one option and it didn't work out. Now she thinks she'll have to live in her car. You know what? She's almost 21 yrs old. My ex bf was paying over half of her rent for the past year because she couldn't find a place she could afford on her own that would take a dog. I've been looking for places for myself and I know that she can find something she can afford, if she looks at different options. She has had more than enough time to find a place and she nixed every suggestion I gave her. So, maybe living in her car will motivate her to do something else.

[Chiquita]

Work is painfully slow.. hardly any projects, as in we might get our hours cut to 32 per week... despite me and my co-workers offering this hours cut more than a week ago the boss has decided to withhold any decision until after July 4th ... I could really use that extra time now to do mommy things...as in NOT make my kid stay in after hours care at summer camp all well, for 3 hours.

UGH!

And probably just as importantly. It makes me wonder if they are putting this off because they want to make another announcement around that time but NEED us at the office to finish a big (non-client project) at the end of the month.

[petunia_843]

I'm just frustrated because things are REALLY hard for me right now. I'm on Day 19 of quitting smoking, and I want to smoke ALL THE TIME. I don't think I've broken the psychological habit yet. I've also lost 47 pounds since December, and I want to EAT all the time, and I can't. Not just because it would derail my diet and my weight loss, but since I have diabetes I can't cheat with pizza or donuts or what have you because this could be VERY BAD. So I can't even lax up a little bit or "take a break". In six months, I have gone from doing no running at all to being able to run .85 mile. I am trying like hell to run a mile before the end of the month. Because of the diabetes, I have totally quit drinking alcohol. I haven't done any other drugs, including 420, in 16 years. So I'm TOTALLY FUCKING SOBER. Which is a nice thing, and except for the cigarette cravings I'm happy, but it has put a major cramp in one of my important friendships. Right now I have two friends, whom I never see. All of my energy goes to working out, planning meals, grocery shopping, cooking meals, tracking meals, you name it. I am also trying like hell to get a different new job, and this is excruciatingly slow going. I don't want to be a therapist, and this seems like the only master's social worker openings that are out there right now. Bottom line is, I'm exhausted. I honestly don't know how I could be trying anymore to change my life. And I don't get a lot of support. Family and friends are somewhat supportive, but then they say how they could never do it, or they act like it's no big deal, or I should have done it years ago. Or if I don't go to the gym one day, or have an extra big sandwich, or some sugar free ice cream, I get looks and comments like "Oh, are you slacking off?" Fuck you. I feel like I am in all of this all by myself and I'm TIRED.

[daysleeper]

Petunia...

You're doing great! Making these big lifestyle changes is brave and hard and really does take up all your energy for a good long time. By the end of year it won't be so hard. Its like being in recovery, it requires a period of 100% selfishness. Fuck your haters. It's really easy to tell people what they should be doing or to watch over them without having to do it yourself. Truth is you are in it all by yourself. THIS IS A GOOD THING. You're not dependent on anyone else for your success. Ok, the job part isn't all on you, but everything else is. Try to take some comfort in that. You can do this, because you're already doing it.

Think of something indulgent you can do that doesn't require food or smokes. Go to a spa, take a few days off work and chill out, or maybe just don't answer the phone or force yourself to listen to anyone for awhile.
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[Kendaljay]

Arg. We ordered a GameB0y Color on 3b@y for my stepbro's birthday, because that's what he asked for. Found a good deal, with some games. Got it yesterday and all the games but one are for the GB Advance, so they don't work in the Color! The seller said nothing about it in the description, so now I have to contact them and see what we can do. And on top of that, we have to go to the Game store or something to get him some games. :P
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[checkersumthing]

I hate it when I am scrambling at work because other people can't follow through on stuff. Even worse, they work for different branches of one big division of the organisation, so when I look bad to a client I can't put all the blame on the other branch because we're all one big division, and that is not appropriate to me. Arg arg arg. I just hate that it makes me do double or triple the amount of work it should take me, because other people can't get their crap together. I hate that I have to answer "I don't know", because someone else can't be bothered to answer my phone call or email. I hate that I have to put my own more pressing work aside, to deal with this crap, because its been lingering and people want their stuff (and they have a right to it!). I hate that I have to work (unpaid) overtime to get my own stuff done because of all of this. I don't mind working overtime because of a huge deadline, or to help out a coworker that is overworked or what have you, but because someone who I am technically a client to isn't delivering, that's frustrating.

Overall I love my job, I just hate it when I have to deal with more of the above than usual.
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[caropop]

If I'm the co-chair of an event, why am I the only person doing anything to plan the event?


grumble, grumble, grumble.
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[sibee]

My friends and I were supposed to leave for the 2.5 hour drive to our camping spot at 2pm today. It's now 5:30 and still waiting.
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[Lady_Stardust]

A girl I'm friendly with at work keeps trying to weasel her way into my outside-of-work life. Friendly work acquaintances =/= friends. It's really exhausting and frustrating.
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[Nemesis]

Listing my house for way less than it's worth really sucks. I just want it sold already!
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