shameless venting for everyone!

[highlow kitty]

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[i'm a ghost]

this thread reminded me that i have a library book due tomorrow! oops.

i am irritated that my family still thinks it is okay to make fun of me for little insignificant things. i am 24, you guys, not 12. i get made fun of for the food i eat (vegan), get called a hippie (why is being a hippie a bad thing?), get told i am 'gross' for not shaving my pits, and just little random things. i have spent so many years trying to be okay with who i am and it seems like they are the ones trying to rip me down. UGH.

also, i hate an online class i am taking. the people are stupid, the professor forwards the emails i send to her to the TA and the TA is a moron who apparently can't read because a paper i submitted had a separate page for the bibliography and she keeps saying, "PLEASE SUBMIT YOUR CITATIONS OR ELSE IT IS PLAGIARISM" and i am like "hey, you, check page 5! JERKFACE"

i am just cranky today. i am going to go watch whip it! because i need some girl power, and also kristen wiig.

[sibee]

Packing up my things to move back to California and I have entirely too much stuff to fit into one suitcase and don't want to buy a second but don't know what stuff I should leave behind because some of it was really expensive but I doubt I will really need snow boots back home and it doesn't really matter anyway because the zipper on my suitcase just broke and I know I can fix it but I am so frustrated and upset about leaving right now I'm tempted to just set it all on fire and go home with nothing. I can borrow the lighter from one of the bajillion hippie friends of my hippie roommate because they apparently live here too and chain smoke right in front of my bedroom door, the same door they knocked on at 1am last night asking if I wanted to drink and then proceeded to complain about me in German when I said that I wanted to continue sleeping because I haven't had a decent night's sleep in ages. All I want to do is make cookies but the kitchen is full of dirty dishes, filled ashtrays and small children. And I'm hungry. Blaaaarrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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[Crumb]

The way my husband reads storybooks to our daughter makes me want to STAB HIM IN THE EYE. I don't know why, but his voice gets all breathy and horrible and weird, and he up-talks IN A FUCKING WHISPER the ends of his sentences.

I usually take over after one book at bedtime, that's all I can sit through before I start getting itchy. Just thinking about it now makes my skin crawl a little.

[jackierocket]

We have company coming into town today to visit and our apt is a disaster. The hub's friends and I ask him to clean the bathroom floor and it's super yuck still. Why is it that I get boys that don't care to clean, but expect me to????????

(off to do 3 loads of laundry and clean the damn floor)
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Round Robin Swap

[BlueJedi]

I really wish people would stop implying that I need to find a job RIGHT NOW!
Half the people I know tell me that I've worked 10 years for my degree, that I deserve a break, and not to worry about it. To just apply, and it'll happen when it's going to. Which is my thought process and my parents. Which are the ones that matter, since, you know, we're all family.

The other half of people get all OMG You haven't got a job yet! You're never going to find one! You need to apply EVERYWHERE that is hiring! My landlady, instead of saying "Oh that's nice you're going out to eat at Olive Garden on valentines" proceeded to tell me that I should apply for a job while I was going there to eat. It's quite frankly pretty damn rude of them, because it's none of their business, and I really am sick of dealing with it. These are the same people who made mean "jokes" about me taking so long in college, and not one of them has even congratulated me. They are the people who when someone gets married immediately jump on them asking when they are going to have children.
I just didn't realize I knew so many people who really don't have anything to talk about other than nitpicking other peoples lives to death. It drives me fucking nuts and I hate that they pressure me! ITS MY LIFE! LEAVE ME ALONE

[Gigi]

Today's 2 1/2 hour Nursing Fundamentals class was supposed to be about IV therapy and blood transfusion. Instead we spent the entire time reviewing fluid/electrolyte balance and ABO blood typing. OMG WE ALL HAD TO TAKE HUMAN PHYSIOLOGY TO GET INTO THIS PROGRAM WTF.

I just wasted 2 1/2 hours of my life listening to my professor talk about things that I already know like the back of my hand. There are a MILLION OTHER THINGS we need to learn; chapters we will NEVER GET TO. So it would be a FANTASTIC idea if we didn't spend an entire class going over things we should know already.

Honestly, this happens so much in my classes and I suspect it is because all the students who took their sciences at this school told me they basically coasted through anatomy & physiology. I took science classes that kicked my ass, but you know what? I learned this shit like I was supposed to, and I'm pissed that my education is being compromised because you* didn't. Ugh.

I am so happy I'm not finishing my degree at this school.

*collective you of other students, of course.

[kittyroc]

I just recently found out that the reason I get only two days of work a week (even though I'm supposed to be full time) is because my boss says I'm "lazy and don't really want to work". This is because I took a week off once. I had the flu from Hell and I brought a doctor's note when I returned. She said that I must not need the money. Fucking bitch. I'm literally the only person with this schedule. Fucking A.

My hubs wants me to quit but I'm going to stick it out until I get hired somewhere else.

[themaverick]

I need to vent, too.

I just went to pick up my younger brother from his girlfriend's house (around 10pm) to drive him home. Why? Because, although he is 19 (and thus past the age of majority AND drinking age here), and wants to be treated like and adult, he cannot seem to act like one. He has not made any recent attempts at finally getting his driver's license, and is content to just rely on other people to chauffeur him around. Mix that with some family drama involving my parents, him, and adult dependent support, and the fact that I personally do *not* like enabling his relationship with this girlfriend of his, and you have one resentful me! I told him it would be the last time I would drive him anywhere (unless he wanted to start paying me). It did not end well.

I am tired of being the nice, dependable kid in the family (I am 25, by the way). I am sick of being treated like an effing doormat! I do not intend to feel guilty about this bullcrap anymore!

I want to crawl under the covers and stay there for several days, but I have to work (teach) tomorrow. Blah. I was in a generally good place, I thought.

Sorry for rambling on here...I'd call my man, but he's in training and I was on the phone with him when my brother called for the ride, and that means he's already in bed now...ugh. Long distance relationships also suck sometimes.

- Debbie Downer (a.k.a. Aimée)

[mooninthetrees]

I just spent 2-3 hours on 3 separate days attempting to buy a television, because the one I originally picked wasn't "big enough". I understand that if we're buying one we don't "need", it should be an upgrade, and one we won't have to replace anytime soon, but I got zero input on what we should be buying if it wasn't the one I picked out.

I made a special trip yesterday to buy a jacket that I loved, but it ran smaller than I thought it did, and they were sold out of my size, completely. Couldn't even order it in. Guess who's size they had it in? My mother's. She bought it. For less than I would have payed, because I would have had to buy the plus-size version. And she rubbed it in my face that the small fit her just fine because she's so tiny, and made me feel like a whale because I couldn't even fit in the 2xl.

I also had to listen to my mother talk about the guy she's dating online, who came to visit her recently. NONSTOP. My 55 year old mother found love and happiness, and I'm 30 years old and stuck in a stupid marriage that makes me miserable most of the time because I'm too ugly and fat to ever have anyone love me. On top of that, he called her in the midst of my tv-buying mess to ask her why she hadn't called him (they talk on the phone 3x a day!), and she got all pissy and was essentially telling him it was because I kept her hostage away from a phone. Then she kept going on to me about how she should have stayed in the car to talk to him instead of going in with me (thanks for assuring your daughter and granddaughters you want to spend time with them!!), and she has to rush home right now so she can call him.

To make matters even better, she called me after she got home to let me know that he "wasn't mad or anything, so I don't have to feel bad about not letting her call him." Gee, thanks mom. Actually, I wasn't feeling bad at all.
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[Chiquita]

I have to attend a meeting tonight that no matter how hard I try to be patient and neutral one STUPID group is going to be pissed off. I have to attend another meeting after that that involves a board president that is pushing through someone else's agenda. I am ready to quit this board, it brought me to tears the other day, if it weren't for the fact that I am one of the few truly unbiased persons on the board.

To attend this meeting we will have to let the kid stay up past bedtime and he has been sooooo patient with all these meetings I feel like a neglectful mommy. And mommy won't be able to tuck him in tonight because she has to be at another meeting.

AND my office got broken into this morning so I now have to work a full day instead of a 1//2 day so no time for a nap I truly need, the stupid meeting was on my mind at 4:30 this morning. I had multiple phone conversations with a very upset boss at 6 this morning because he was set to fly out early this morning and had to deal with this, now he is gone and I am dealing. I had to get a new computer fast for a coworker and set that up and am now waiting around for insurance and security persons because boss gave them my name (forget going home anywhere close to on time)

Now I am having to work through lunch so I can pick up the kid and my hubby has 1/2 a chance to stay late at a client meeting.

AND i am feeling totally hormonal which is not going to help at the meeting tonight. (any suggestions for hormones would be truly appreciated)

[Solstice]

I have a throbbing headache, and it is not made better by spending the day grading 30+ undergrad papers. I would be further ahead if I hadn't slept in too much this weekend. Today, of course, I woke up at a sensible hour, and feel lousy because of it.

[greenbean]

this is more of a whine than a vent:

I'm experiencing the downside of being self-employed at the moment - that is, I'm not feeling well and I can't take time off. If I still worked for a company, I'd just call in a sick day and then spend the rest of the day in bed with soup and tea and trashy magazines. Instead, I have to do some paperwork and then drive half an hour to teach my class, where I will shake my nauseous belly and project my scratchy voice and try to fake a peppy and positive attitude. Blah.
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[miss e]

I invited you to dinner with my friends. No, we can't change the restaurant and the time for YOU. We all had already made these plans over a week ago. Really, you don't even have to come . . . I was just being polite.

[SlipperyShade]

The friend who got me my current job is talking about finding something else because of some BS that's going on in the company right now. I wish I could go too, but I can't, because I've barely been there 90 days and have nothing else lined up, and it wouldn't be fair to whatever employer I went with and then left shortly after when I leave the country. Plus that might look bad on me. Grr.

Also, I hate FB but I use it because so many of my friends have forgotten how to keep in touch like normal people, with phonecalls and letters. *sigh* It creeps me out to have photos of me tagged and out there. Who knows what my idiot friends will post.
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